The original sin is that of knowledge. You have committed it the moment you decided that you know how you must be. At that moment, you have lost your innocence, your joy. You have lost your fluidity.

But notice also, that for you to know how you must be, you must also know how others must be, how life must be. So, at that moment, you have rebelled against how things are, you rebelled against reality. God is reality and reality is God, thus we could say that you rebelled against God by proclaiming that you know better how things should be. That was the crucial moment, the original trauma of separation. At that moment, good and bad were created, and you became truly lost, doomed to continually seek one and avoid the other. Always judging, evaluating, measuring. Never completely satisfied, never completely happy, except maybe for a fleeting moment.

The original sin is the birth of the ego, and the consequence is that it’s been crying for God’s love ever since. Malice and sorrow, pain and violence, deceit and manipulation are also some of the consequences. It gets pretty bad when you forget yourself so completely.

You have forgotten that the God which created yourself is you, and you lost your way back home to yourself. To start remembering, you have to recall one most important, most profound quality God has. Do you remember what it is? It is the most mind-boggling one, one we really don’t understand very well.

So what is it? Simple. He loves you. Regardless of what you did, say, thought or felt - he loves you, always. He loves you right now.

So if you want to remember, that is how you have to re-learn to look at yourself - through God’s eyes so to speak, as he would. Lovingly, forgivingly, compassionately. Forgive yourself for all your sins. Learn to be kind to yourself. Treat yourself better. Treat your body better. Speak to yourself kinder. Don’t be so hard on yourself.

Maybe you’re not used to. Sure. Practice. Who said it would be easy to become closer to God? Self-compassion meditation, for example, is a wonderful tool to become more loving and accepting of yourself.

Think about it, how else will you ever find him, how else will you find your way home? If you’re looking for God, you must know what you’re looking for.