Hard lol. Extremely hard. But the good news is that you don’t have to fight its fighting. It’s impossible. It’s also not possible to win this war. The fight in ego cannot be worked around, it can only be experienced, witnessed. It is nothing but an experience, an emotional experience. It can be scary, painful, disorienting, it may feel like you’re losing your sanity, going crazy. The reality is, you are gaining your sanity by witnessing your insanity. Enlightenment is nothing but experiencing all the fighting and all the insanity in you until there’s nothing left.

Which is why I sometimes recommend psychedelics. It can be real hard to go that deep and allow yourself to witness it all in meditation. It can take a lot of time. LSD will show you your insanity whether you want it or not - you just have to have the guts to watch. None of it is true, it’s just your imagination. Large doses aren’t productive, it must be experienced consciously. Getting lost in a psychedelic experience is not what it’s about, although it can happen and there’s nothing wrong with that. But what it’s really about is opening up to what’s there. What is experienced, seen and accepted, can never come back.