If I am already a nobody, will enlightenment make me special?
Yes. It will make you feel very special, because you will realize that being “nobody” is very dear, very special to you. That it is what defines you. That you have chosen to think of yourself this way, unconsciously, long time ago, and it has been bothering you ever since. And yet, it is special. Very special to you. Because this is also how you resist treating yourself better, loving yourself more, maybe learning to stop constantly comparing yourself negatively to other people. You wouldn’t know how to live otherwise, that’s all you know - “I’m a nobody”. To leave it behind, what would be left of you? You are used to be “a nobody”, and it has nothing to do with what you have achieved in life. It has only to do with how you’ve been speaking to yourself - callously, without compassion, without love.
“I’m a nobody”? What an awful thing to say. And how ridiculous. Everyone is somebody, everyone.