The only way to reach a new level of spiritual awakening is by abandoning the level which you have currently reached. Only then a new level will open up, not before. The caveat though, is that nothing can be abandoned before it’s been thoroughly enjoyed, so all attempts at reaching new levels are generally counter-productive.

Meditation practice is a tool for teaching yourself to enjoy everything, especially, and most importantly, the unpleasant parts of you, because abandoning something, leaving it behind, letting it go is always unpleasant and scary. For that to happen, a deep relaxation is needed, a deep surrender.